Monday, September 26

Dear Stranger



Dear Stranger
With the trend of writing letters slowly fading away in this urban chaos, I find it almost silly to the point of being childish, to write something to you. Maybe I could just pick up the phone and say what I feel. But then again, this is better. It is a little bit more private, as if I am sharing very intimate bit of myself to you, whispering crazy nothings and silently praying it reaches your ears.
I am a little Quixote-ic, as it appears; I am at the fault of being an archaic romantic fool. Then again, why not?
When I was small, I used to sit by the window all day long; being a timid child I found it more suitable to look at the world from the confined security of my room. The street was a strange place; the people stranger. I liked to feel that there was this shadow just like me doing the same, somewhere out there. As times would have it, I grew bold more curious and ventured out. In search of stories, a story that I felt everyone has it in them to tell - men and women all around with their own insights and trinkets about life. I became a listener. I listened to all that they had to say and share. Then came the period of mood swings. I used to go back and forth in my memories and try to find a sense in the story that I am saying. It was like having an identity crisis. I still have them. Moments of sheer loathing agony or euphoria depending on the story that is me. The shadows danced by my window as I looked inwards. Then also I liked to believe that somebody outside this confined space was having the same story in another world. We are all strangers here, some to others and some to ourselves. I am writing my story as it comes to me and probably crossing out two out of every three lines that I have jotted down in my untidy scribbling.

Stranger. What is your story?

With love,
Another stranger.

Sunday, April 17

Dear Macbeth

"I am in blood stepped so far, that should I wade no more returning were as tedious as go over".



I would like to believe...

I would like to believe.

There are no certain things that are going to be added to put weight into this line. No emotions or poignant discourse on the human condition. No promises of a better future or something better than what things are.

I would just like to believe.

When, who, what, how is all subjective
Just like I breathe
Just like I have a smoke at the end of the day reflecting on the day
Just like there is....

I would like to just believe.

Waiting.....

This part of my life is called waiting.
This is similar to that feeling that made me have sleepless nights just before the exam results would be there.
Do I do decently? That normal expression for those average students out there who may be excellent students in their own right and could tell you amazing nuggets of knowledge that was not in the school curriculum?
Do I do fine? That expression for those students who have aced the exams but couldn't find a place where they were promised by their parents, that fabled place of happiness which they bartered guitar lessons and football sessions for?
Do I fail? That expression where I have just passed through like the countless cattle of people. Who will never matter according to their parents or society because a piece of paper has written in on stronger markings than the birthmark I have on my left thigh or that hamstring after the cricket match that let me tell you I won.

This part of my life is called waiting.
Waiting to fit into the shoes of a male because my father led by example.
Waiting to fit into the role of a son because my mother did not have me 9 months in her stomach and I can never forget about it.
Waiting to be the perfect loyal man to the perfect girl because infidelity or sporting a bit of male chauvinism in any way would give rise to the idea that I am a despised being.


This part of my life is called waiting
For things to churn out between the days that go by and will pass by.
Waiting for that illusion of happiness that I think is mine but has thorns planted around it.

~|~

Wednesday, April 13

Jack Napier a.k.a Joker

Look into his eyes and tell yourself he's just a man.
Tell yourself he can't know the things he says he does. He can't know your fears. But he has Alfred. he has your friend. And his eyes....
     .... you have studied the human eye. There are six eye movements that reveal motive, then fifteen variations of each one. On everyone you face -- even the most hardened criminals -- the pupils contract or expand depending on emotion.
     Happiness, laughter, affection. The pupils open.
     Fear, anger, hatred. The pupils close.

But not his. His pupils stay fixed, tiny points of blackness, the eyes of someone who hates everything, everyone.
Eyes that let in no light, that see through the darkness, stare into you, each pupil a tiny black pearl fixed in space.
A bullet coming at you. Eyes that say he's more than a man, eyes that say he knows you.

No.... you know what he is. Tell yourself the truth. He's just a man who fell in a vat of chemical waste. He's just a man... like you, made of bone and tissue and blood.

Tuesday, March 29

Should we have an Emoji for the 'Bard of Avon'

Shakespeare's plays rendered in text-speak and separate "text walking lanes" in the Antwerp city centre for the citizens absorbed in their smartphones show how technology evolution might alter the past as well as the present. 

Language, especially in its use in everyday communication, is an essential aspect of being in the world. It is a temporal medium that is prone to being fluid, though quite as often used as a force against change - to put down what endures and abides. So linguistic and literary conservatives might feel that the seventh seal of the Apocalypse was being opened when they read the rewriting of Hamlet's dilemma as -
"2 *bee* or not 2 *bee*,   that is the ? "          {*bee* as in the bumble bee emoji on whatsapp)

Shakespeare is, after all, the father of immortals. Yet in his own time the plays of Shakespeare, who was far from being a linguistic purist, spoke a language that was brilliantly in flux, vitally enlarging the scope of spoken and literary English.  The nicest thing about Shakespeare is his ability to be a contemporary in every century.